As some of you may have heard, Byron has left London... with less than 24 hours warning, he just up and left and didn't give me any reason other than "I can't do it anymore". I have since got out of him that he that basically he freaked out. He said he just needed a break from things- working in a pub and us. We were talking about our future and what would happen when we went home, would we stay together, would one of us move... And he was sick and tired of working in pubs, he wanted a day job where he would have his week nights and weekends free so we could go away more etc. So i think things just got too much for him.
So as you can imagine, i've been left feeling devastated, alone and wondering what happened and asking myself why it all had to happen so quickly...
I didnt see it coming and I think on his behalf it was a decision made very quickly without much thought as he is now regretting it. He had just booked and paid for our Spain trip, 2 days before he left so his quick departure wasn't planned...
I have to move because I can't stay in our place anymore, it makes me too sad, so I have spent the week, not sleeping, not eating, packing and crying constantly basically...
So that all happened on the Sunday, Byron's flight left at 12pm and there were lots of tears and regrets at the airport....
Then on Monday night I had to say goodbye to Jackie as she was leaving the next day to go back home because her 2 year visa had ended. So we had a lovely dinner Monday night and then there was another teary goodbye....
So has been a very emotional few days for me... I'm not sure where me and Byron stand and what's going on there, I just want a big hug from my dad :(
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